Pray for Prayer

By: PriscyMarie

If my people who are called by my name humble themselves and pray …

This past Thursday at bible study we had a surprise prayer service instead and it was great.  I didn’t think about it when we all knelt at the altar but it was hunger provoking yet satisfying.  I have been feeling the Holy Spirit pulling me closer lately but frankly I have had a struggle to pray for more than five minutes.  If you are anything like me you will understand.  Some people kneel to pray and you won’t see them again for like five hours.  My mind runs on the 4^th gear for most of the day and when I kneel to pray, recently especially, I go into neutral.  I’ve been praying for God to help me pray.   I have so much I now I want to pray for but it all either gets summed up or I forget completely.

This Thursday was a refreshing experience.  As soon as I knelt the Holy Spirit did what He was probably waiting a while to do. He took over.  With Tears rolling down my cheeks I felt it.  The open void inside the depths of my soul was crying to be filled by the only permanent satisfaction.  I didn’t know what my spirit was praying but I knew I needed it.  The words my mind couldn’t formulate or didn’t know I should even ask for, my spirit requested.

I am constantly thinking and meditating on the Lord, loving on Him and thanking Him but I am far from Knowing Him.  It is a bit crazy to think that God, above all wants alone time with me and wants to bring me close to Him even when I’m an idiot, but He does.  How I long to be in His uninterrupted, unadulterated, limitless and tangible presence.  I am confident that with all the wonders and miracles I’ve seen I have yet to experience the greatness of His presence where repentance flows and His holiness is a standard as oppose to our tainted view on what holiness is.  Just be with HIM.

This past Thursday was refreshing and needed.  God answered my prayer.  He helped me pray.  I want His permanent overflow.  Forget about everything else and just have Him.  I know Christ died that we may go to Him directly but sometimes I’ve felt the veil was still covering the Holy of Holies.   I hope you join me in seeking an unveiled relationship with the Lord where the impossible is the norm.